Thinspiration

My mind concentrates on weight, unhealthy amounts. Admittedly, I am a food-lover. I can easily eat two muffins within the space of minutes; or even a large carb-packed, wholy meal which is specified for two when really there's only what appears to be enough for one when to take a sneak peak at the contents. I love it! I'm a food lover! However, my biggest downfall is the overwhelming sense of guilt that floods my thoughts once I've completed my food or mini-binge.

Anorexia and bulimia seem too extreme to define me. I'm aware that I suffer from neither, and I have only attempted to purge a handful of times throughout my entire life - which is not brilliant but in this century's media, you're in most cases faced with a tragic sense of failure when you promise yourself you will never give it a go. It seems like an easy option; you can eat all the food you want, you can experience the texture and taste the tastes, and afterwards, rid yourself of it as if it never happened. To some it may seem like the light at the end of the binge-ridden tunnel. I believe I do suffer from an eating disorder, though. One that eats up your mind. Psychology classes anorexia and bulimia as mental illness' due to the abnormal opinions and thoughts that surround food. Is it fair to say that one who can control their eating but not their thoughts, is still suffering from an eating disorder? Today's media hasn't addressed the depth in which an eating disorder can be discussed, and moreso focuses on merely the phsyicality of the illness. If one was to believe this is right, then how can the wicked and flesh-eating illness ever properly be understood amongst the decade's most vulnerable?